update

So wow! I havent blogged in months! Been so busy around here. I dont know how much more I will be able to blog. We wont have internet for awhile. We are getting settled in Springfield. It stinks that Melissa has to work. It was never the plan, well our plan anyways. But we are making it work. Melissa and I are both working at our old jobs and we just started renting a house. There are boxes still every where! But little by little we are making it our home! Thanks for all the prayers!

Changes and Trials

This past week has probably been the worst week of my life. I dont know what God has planned for the rest of my life but I hope I never have to go through this again. I was asked to resign from my position as youth pastor of Bible Baptist Church. My heart is broken. I dont want to leave my life, my students, and everyone I love. Because of disagreements between me and the pastor, he has chosen that we can no longer effectively do ministry together. I have done nothing biblically or morally wrong. Nobody consulted me when they decided to ruin my life and all vote to make me resign. So we will be leaving St. Charles on Nov. 22. As of today, we are not sure where we are going to live. I just bought a brand new car, Jaxen is 8 weeks old, and we live in the church parsonage so we have to find a new place to live. I am so ready to put all this behind me. I am ready for our next phase of life. Just a new chapter in our book. This chapter is called Life sucks. I hate to leave my teens and I hate to see them hurting as we leave. This is my life. But God has better and bigger plans for me and my family. Genesis 50:20 says "But as for you, you thought evil against me, but God meant it unto good. Please pray for me and my family as we make this difficult transition.

Jaxen Kayne

So here are some pics of Jaxen. Born Sept. 17 at 6 pds 11 oz and 20 inches long. He is already 2 weeks old today! Time has flown! He has lost his umbilical cord, he is already using a pacifier, and he is getting bigger every day. I can't wait to see him every day after work. Family has been here for the past 2 weeks so we finally have the next few days for just the 3 of us. I do feel bad though... Toby and Molly have not had much attention lately. Hopefully they can come in tonight and play. Cant wait to see Jaxen play with them some day. But for now they just enjoy licking him in the face lol.

Fatherhood

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I'm feeling...

Excited
Nervous
Scared
Confused
Worried
Anxious
Joy
Surprise
Optimism
Love
Anticipation
Pride
Wonder
Uncomfortable
Wary
Apprehensive
Stress
Panic
Hesitant
But most of all I am impatient. I cant wait to see Jaxen. To hold him in my arms. I have loved him since the moment I found out Melissa was pregnant. I cant wait to see the little person I love but have never met. How can I love someone I have never seen or met. I am excited to get to feel and see a glimpse of how God loves His children...all through my son.

Weird words... My son.

Been A While

Wow! Its been a while since I have blogged. Just got back from 2 weeks of camp. Worn out! But had an amazing time! We really got to see God work on some hearts. Im nervous but excited for the students to restart school. When their summer is over I feel like mine is over. I havent even began to start organizing for the fall. So READY for Jaxen to get here! We are getting his room ready but we still need some of the big stuff. We have 2 more showers to go I hate them being so close to the due date but it is what it is. From the words of my wife, " Put your big girl panties on and deal with it" So thats what I do.

Vacation

Just got back yesterday from vacation. We have been really wanting to go on a big vacation again, especially before the baby gets here but it didnt happen. We went to see family. It was fun and relaxing. Nothing was planned. We just hung out with family and friends. I got to see my sister, brother n law and my nieces like 4 nights in a row. I miss them so much!! Melissa's mom and dad also got their results from their cancer scans...

Her mom, Cathy, is "technically" cancer/ tumor free. There are no cancer spots on her chest. She has to get some more scans in a few months. A huge blessing and answer to prayer!!!

Her dad, Jim, had 2 stage four cancers. His liver, colon, and lymph nodes were covered in cancer last year. June 2008 he was just hoping to see his last son graduate high school in 2009 and they told us if we wanted to make any plans for vacations, we shouldnt put it off.

The scans showed that his liver and lymph nodes are clear of cancer. There is a small spot in his colon. He is scheduled to have it removed in surgery next Thursday June 2. We are planning on going down to Springfield for a few days next week. Please pray for him and his recovery. He will be off work for a month. God has worked a miracle in his life. The fact that surgery is an option is amazing! God isnt done with her parents yet. He has big things in store and I am excited I get to be a part of it!

Crazy Week

It has been a crazy/ awesome week! This week is VBS at church and I'm the VBS director. I have been a part of a lot of vbs's but never in charge. It's a lot of work! But I have an amazing team to help me. Tonight is the last night. Our highest number was 74 kids on Wednesday. We have raised almost $300 dollars for a missionary. The theme is Boomerang Express. I have been on stage all week doing the motions for the songs. I look like a goober but I love it and all the songs get stuck in my head. One more night to go.....